Not so Great Kate

Kate has caught some kind of bug in her tummy. She's been vomiting and having diarrhea for the past couple of days. She's refused to eat as well leaving her at only 14 pounds. She's lost 3 ounces since yesterday. Doctor has prescribed pedialyte for the next 24 hours to prevent dehydration and tonight, Kate gulped 3 oz. of it (the most amount of liquid she's had in one sitting in 4 days).

It's extremely heartbreaking to see Kate's ribs under her skin when I change her clothes or to notice how loose her pants have become. It's extremely difficult to hear her whimper and moan from discomfort and hunger and to have her arms cling desparately around my neck for comfort. It's been grueling to watch her reject her bottle yet try to slurp every drop of water from our cups only to choke on it.

It's been very difficult to try and keep a smile on my face for Kate and Ellie and Jae. I think I've finally lost it today.

But tomorrow is another day and I'm comforted to know that God is in control. Day by day I learn to depend on Him.